It's Time To Begin

OK, so you may have figured out from my earlier posting that I am getting a divorce. All that talk about new beginnings and starting over. To make a long story short, I have been married for 18 years. During those 18 years I think we were truly happy for about 1 year. The rest of the time we continually struggled to find a way to make our marriage work. Nathan and I are two very different people. Other than enjoying travel, there is not much else we have in common. So we played ping pong with ourselves. For a period of time, I would try to fit myself into his idea of the wife he wanted, and then he would try to fit himself into the person I wanted. Well, that just doesn't work.

Today I wake up with a plan. I fully intended to start packing. Even though I am selling almost everything we own, there are still a few items I plan to keep. Things like my books (I love my books), my china, and a few other small items. We will also keep my book cases, the dining room set and china hutch and Eddy's bed. Pretty much everything else goes. I will be having a huge estate sale the last weekend of January and will use that money to buy all new things for our new lives. India is getting really excited about it. Eddy is still pretty reserved, but that is his personality. He says if we have a couch he plans to sit on it and that is as far as he is willing to go when it comes to planning. LOL. He is such a guy.Anyhow, wouldn't you know it, India comes into my room a few minutes after I wake up today and tells me she wants to spend the day with me. We talk about new furniture, TVs and dishes. So off we go.

First we went to BestBuy to scope out a new TV to replace the monstrosity we currently have. No kidding, this was the one reason we were there. We had pretty much settled on a 48 inch TV and might have even found a nice cabinet for it. On the way out, we see a red box. We almost missed it. It was a box to hold slips of paper for a drawing. Want to guess what they are giving away? A 50 inch TV to be delivered by one of the Hurricanes (local major hockey team) players. In went my entry. And yes, I fully intend to win that TV. It’s a done deal.

After that I took India to Rooms to Go to see the new living room furniture I had picked out. I have been trying to make up my mind on whether to buy a sofa and a love seat, or a sofa and a chair with an ottoman. I have been going back and forth all week now. So we walk in and make a b-line strait to the set I am going to get. Next to that same furniture was a small wooden box with, yet again, another drawing. This time the prize is $1000 towards new furniture. This is just enough for the chair and ottoman. Do I have to say it? I entered that one too. Problem solved. I get the sofa and love seat, and the $1000 will cover they chair and ottoman. Yes! I am winning that too. No discussion on the matter. The prize is mine.

Life can be so exciting!

Later




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Where to go from here

People start blogs for so many reasons. Some are looking to start a writing career. Let me put your mind at ease right now. NO I AM NOT UNDER THE IMPRESSION THAT I CAN WRITE. (Yes, you will thank me for that statement later... or maybe now. Take your pick) Others just want to say what's on their minds. Some are funny, some are sad, some are profound. Me, I'm just honest.

My life has been a whirlwind. I know a lot of people feel that way, but really I have whirlwind in a big flashing light above my head on a daily basis. I am hoping that by telling my story, some history and some current, that things will calm down and that maybe the pieces that have been flying around all of these years will finally fall into place and complete the puzzle.

Those who know me and my life history inevitably shake their heads in wonder and say "You should write a book". They all swear it would be a best seller. Or, better yet, it would make the perfect Life Time movie. A story of survival. A story of triumph. A story of faith. True Life Time Movie Network material. Or, a comedy of immeasurable proportions. It all depends on how you choose to view it. It might turn out to be one of those movies that you have to drink a beer or two to fully relate to and appreciate. Like The Hangover on steroids. My general response to all of those who would like to see something else crazy, but good result from all of this is usually something to the tune of "I know. I sure wish I had kept a journal." And I do, but I didn't, so here we are.

 The truth is, that my story would have to be written as a series of sorts. Feel free to laugh at my lame attempts at titles. My kids do/are. Book one would be written in 3 major parts. Let's see.... Part One:  A child's imagination isn't enough.  Part Two:Having Teenage Drama Down to a Fine Science. And Part Three: Getting Married Already? Really?(Add sarcasm here).  In this book I will have covered my childhood, teenage years and my early twenties. There would be no lack of unbelievably embarrasing moments, truely bad decisions, honest tear jerkers, and a few (why admit to the true number, ugh) ridiculous attempts at romance. Rediculouse being the key word.

I believe I would simply title book two Colorado. I lived in Colorado for seven years. True insanity from day one to the day we moved. I am talking about twilight zone crazyness. I will fill you in later. All I can say for now is "what a ride!"


 And for those who haven't gotten enough of my bizarre life, I would probably have to add a companion book that simply covers my many and ever changing religious believes. I have managed to keep my mother and sisters thoroughly amused for years with this one.For Chapter One I could start with: Why Go To Church? I Already Know It All. Then move on to Chapter Two: Am I Mormon Because I believe, Or Because I am Told To Believe?  (Just a quick note here.... I am not mocking the Mormon Faith, it just wasn't right for me.) The next chapter would have to say something to the effect of Crystals, Cards, and Tons of Questions. Chapter Four in this "Companion Book" would be titled Well Heck! Are They All Wrong, Or Are They All Right?  The final Chapter, so far, would not have a short snapy title. It would have to be profound. I am sure that this would be a good place for the Editor to step in. Otherwise, I would call it: There is Spirit, Life and Creation In Everything. Call it God, Call It Energy, Or Call it Chocolate. The Title Doesn't Really Matter. It's How It Makes You Feel And What You Do With What You Have Learned That Really Matters.  Well isn't that a mouth full.

The next, but hopefully not last book would revolve around my life in North Carolina. How I have finally come full circle, and am beginning again. Over all, my life has certainly not been boring. Still, I feel like my life is finally just beginning. Even though I am 38 years old, have been married for 18 years and have two teenagers, I feel like I imagine an 18 year old feels when they first leave home and start leading their own lives, living their own dreams. I truly wonder how everything will end. All I know is that where ever my life leads, it is bound to be a great adventure.




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